Artist/Healer Archetype

There is a constant push/pull inside my body between two archetypes:

The Artist vs. The Healer

The Artist vs. Healer internal battle shows up in my psyche in interesting ways.

The Artist is my creative side, always coming up with new ideas. She is the activist, the free thinker, the runaway who answers to no one and doesn't believe in rules. She stays up late, she wears boy-ish clothes, and she says whatever comes to mind, whenever she wants. Her energy is exuberant, boundless, and free.

The Healer shows up differently. She is the nonprofit manager, the director, the therapist. She is the perfectionist, hyper-aware, and inquisitive. She cooks meals for her friends and loved ones, lends a compassionate ear whenever needed, and keeps her office neat & tidy. She is professional, organized, and "has it together".

The Artist dropped out of High School while the Healer got a Master's Degree.

As you can imagine, these somewhat opposing aspects of my personality have created some confusion throughout my life. It has made it difficult to stick to one thing for too long, as the opposing energy eventually pulls me in another direction. Jumping from project to project, creating something new, only to lose interest in a year or so as I seek the thrill of creating anew again.

This past week, this energy reached a head.

I had all of my art supplies out and a recent painting taunting me from the table. While my healing business, ThetaSoma, whispered in my ear, begging for attention.

My mind spun back and forth, "Should I spend today creating? Painting? Or working? I don't want to work, I want to paint! But if I don't work, we won't make any money. I love my clients, and the job I have created! But, the quiet meditation of my art!"

On, and on, and on, and on it went. The whole week whisked away in this ridiculous struggle.

Needless to say, the painting didn't get painted, and the work didn't get done.

Ahh, the ups and downs of being an entrepreneur.

Finally on late Thursday afternoon, it dawned on me.

The world needs me to be both.

I need me to be both.

It is time for me to stand in my power as an Artist & a Healer.

These forces need not be opposing, but complimentary.

The Artist opens potential for creative, new healing pathways, and the Healer brings discipline and ancient wisdom to my art.

Deep Inhale, and Exhale. I can do this.

All around me I am seeing the reflections of other Artist/Healers -- and I see us rising.

I see us tuning into the creative force of the universe and transmuting that energy into love and healing.

I see us writing music, creating paintings, tattooing, making clothing, building communities, offering trainings... all while reminding our patrons to Breathe. To tune into the Body. To remember why we are here.

Whew, this shit is powerful ya'll!

A few years ago I had a past life regression where I remembered my last life as a healer woman in Acadia, Canada. This is the home of my French, Irish, and Acadian Ancestors. Throughout the past few years of integrating that memory, I have realized that much of my work in this lifetime is to transition from the Healer to the Artist. To heal, so that I can create.

The world needs us to create. We are needed to wake up, to heal our bodies, hearts, and minds, to create the New Earth. Only through harmonizing our vibration with the energy of creation can we pull through what is coming.

Will you rise with us?